All I think about is how people treat me. I am constantly shunned against. I am hated upon. I am tossed aside, put into a wall, and without a flash, I disappear. I cling to the walls, blending in. And then when I finally find a place where I can belong, I let down my walls. I let down my constant guards, the security that keeps me from being thrown away, tossed away as garbage. But then when they are let down, and I become my true self, no one wants me. No one is there to say Hello, or How are you? No one says I love you, or even registers me as a friend. I've had friends, and it wonderful. 3 great friends, and then I let down my walls. IRL, I have no friends. No one to hang out with, No one to talk to, no one to even ask how are you doing? I have no one. So then that's when I go into my own little world. I go inside my mind, and I make my own world. I have my stuffies, who are my best friends. I have my dog Glorybee, who I can hug and kiss, but then thats it. I have a fish, Reddy, who swims and is the only one who enjoys my singing. At school, I put my guards sky high, hiding from the world, becoz otherwise I would be dead. I could have been dead along time ago. About 4 years now I think. But for some reason something kept me alive... All I know is that I'm alone, and no one comes to save me. Everyday I fall deeper into a black hole, one day, maybe, I will fall all the way in.
