My Life

All I think about is how people treat me. I am constantly shunned against. I am hated upon. I am tossed aside, put into a wall, and without a flash, I disappear. I cling to the walls, blending in. And then when I finally find a place where I can belong, I let down my walls. I let down my constant guards, the security that keeps me from being thrown away, tossed away as garbage. But then when they are let down, and I become my true self, no one wants me. No one is there to say Hello, or How are you? No one says I love you, or even registers me as a friend. I've had friends, and it wonderful. 3 great friends, and then I let down my walls. IRL, I have no friends. No one to hang out with, No one to talk to, no one to even ask how are you doing?  I have no one. So then that's when I go into my own little world. I go inside my mind, and I make my own world. I have my stuffies, who are my best friends. I have my dog Glorybee, who I can hug and kiss, but then thats it. I have a fish, Reddy, who swims and is the only one who enjoys my singing. At school, I put my guards sky high, hiding from the world, becoz otherwise I would be dead. I could have been dead along time ago. About 4 years now I think. But for some reason something kept me alive... All I know is that I'm alone, and no one comes to save me. Everyday I fall deeper into a black hole, one day, maybe, I will fall all the way in.

Heloo again

LOLZ well, i just read my little "info" about me section. I really should update that. Neetashaa doesn't attend school anymore, Kalyss has graduated and i believe she studying in Japan... And well i still see Jethro quite a bit but not as much now that were at different schools. And my character isn't  "Power Lord" anymore, I've changed her to a more, fighter kind of girl. Someone that loves action and is more upfront. and, i recently decided that i wouldn't have the different covens of group thingys.. Oh well, larping is still the most  fun thing ive ever done. Live on thy characters!!!! :D

Emma

BAK!!

lolz wow well that plan of updating everyday went well. XDD lmao. So, nothing. lolz literally nothing has happened. Actaully, i learned what slam poetry is. And i have written like, 4 peoms. YAY! lolz oh well. so.... yeah. haven't really been watching Merlin lately, but i think there up to episode 7? Maybe? ANyways, i need to watch that.. and i need to sign up for drievers ed, and... well I've been streaming quite a bit lately, twitch.tv/EpsilonFreak  i usually stream tues night, thrus and fri night. And often on sat. I would try to stream on my lunch break, but i reserve that time for youtube vids. Which remind me that i have to edit a few... AND i need to continue making vids. so far its one a month which isnt all that great. :D XDDD well im ranting  on and im tired, so night love you. <3 font="font">Wish i could be with you. :P LOLZ... well yeah... things are safe, except myself, but thats another problem. Come on out be back in this world, oh, and skype me!!!! u know thy account. XDDD lmao well see ya!

<3 font="font"> Love you E!!!!

Emma

Updated!!!

Hey guys! Well after 4 months of not checking this site, I have finally come back from the dead! HAHAHA! XD lolz. Well, it's nice to be back and blogging again. Currently reading Death Note... again... for like the 50th time. D:. But hey, manga is awesome. Can't ever get enough of it. Also, Since this is my own little Merlin fansite, I have to put up my opinion on season 5. AMAZING SO FAR. OMG It has been looking quite good of a season from what I've watched. I haven't seen episode 6 yet, so don't spoil it! By the way, if your looking to watch Merlin and live outisde of the UK (like me. I live in Canada), Then go check out couchtuner.com for a bunch of different shows. It's free and if your computer can handle video pretty well, then good quality as well. Anyways, E, if your reading, make your self a blospot account. Don't use a real name please. XD lolz. Yeah so expect some awesome shit soon, mainly Merlin stuff, but I will put up other news and stuff as well. See ya!

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